It's been 95 days. If you have been with me since the beginning of this project, it's likely you have seen a theme throughout the days -- a message of Change. Of working on yourself. Of hope. Of empowerment. Of Grace. Of healing. But I would be remiss if I ended these 100 Days without mentioning the role of my faith in this journey.
I am intentionally not preachy. I am intentionally cautious about over-spiritualizing. I am sensitive to the fact that not all who have followed along will agree with my opinions about the role of faith in the healing process or how it influences my choices. It's not religion to me. It's a way of life. It's a personal heart journey with the One who has made all of this possible.
While my faith journey has been rocky, it has also been a constant source of strength. While I have experienced frustration, disillusionment, hurt, and disappointment in The Church -- I have also spent the time to explore, navigate, pray through, reflect on, and wrestle with what a faith walk looks like for me. One that is authentic, real, raw, worth sharing and grounded in Love and Grace.
What i know for sure is that God has been by my side every step of the way. Even when I couldn't see what the heck he was doing with my life. Even when I felt like no-one could hear my cries for help. Even when my story felt hopeless. While I couldn't see or feel it at the time, His gentle hand was on my life, guiding each step, giving me the gift of understanding slowly over time. I may have had periods of turning my back on The Church but I have never turned my back on God. Even now, I am still healing and learning what it looks like to be part of the The Church in ways that feel authentic to me. The truth is ... The Church, when it's working well, is a beautiful support system. God has gifted me with a beautiful core group of friends who have shown me what The Church is supposed to look like. They have loved me through the rough patches and have spoken healing truth into my life. But it has taken time to develop and a willingness to be vulnerable.
I share this with you because I believe there is a LOT of woundedness out there. Woundedness that has created confusion, doubt, and disillusionment - spiritually. Our souls are walking wounded and if we don't recognize that our souls are fragile, then we won't address it's need for healing - lasting spiritual healing.
God has used this 100 Day journey as a big part of my own healing process. YOU have been part of my healing process. I don't know the next phase of the journey, but I do know that I have been changed in these 100 Days of exercising my creativity and pouring my heart's cry out into the world. Watching God unravel the details of this 25 year dream of becoming a potter has been transformational and validating. Keep praying friends. If you've quit The Church - I totally get it. But don't quit your faith journey. Persevere. It's where the healing happens. Pray, Watch. Wait. He is FOR you.
"I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken." Psalm 16:8